Not out of fear that I may be caught
But out of the knowledge that I won't be.
Yes, I do want children.
Yes, I do believe in marriage.
That kiss, before we parted?
That was the lie.
"Look at this," he says, showing me through an echoed laugh, an email notification, the username of a girl who checked him out on OKcupid. Artemis. I laugh too, ironically. Or, perhaps because I'm only just getting the message.
Messages can be clouded, heartfelt choices are clear.
ReplyDeleteI love it when you're honest. :)
ReplyDeletePerhaps he can't see the bottom of the deep end of your pool that he unintentionally found himself drifting into and so uses a cheap app to redirect back to the shallows. Honesty mixed with touch has a way of triggering defenses in people especially when they aren't used to hearing(or feeling) it. You claim the kiss was a lie but could that not just be a defense of your own? A way to separate yourself from the situation, taking cues from his withdrawal so as not to hurt when his defense kicks in, which looks(and most likely feels) a whole lot like your old acquaintance rejection?
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